Step 10: Speak Up
Now, I'm seen and heard. Now I ask to stay connected to employers who turn me down on LinkedIn. Now my voice doesn't shake when I speak. And that's all because I started, as simply as this sounds, talking.
Step 6: Get Out of My Own Head
Everyday I have to battle negative thoughts and more often than not there's no real reason for it. Sometimes I get so involved in soothing my panicked mind that I forget to live my life. I forget my responsibilities and just cry. That's been happening for the past few months.
Step 3: Be More Selective
Going with the flow has been ingrained in my mind that it's the ideal behavior. Something comes up?
That's cool.
Deadline get changed?
Whatever.
Need to make a group decision?
Whatever y'all decide is cool.
Step 2: Stop Apologizing
However when it comes to me, "I'm sorry" is one of my top said phrases. I know it's annoying to hear that every time one of my quirks slip out. While it's endearing in the first encounters, it soon becomes suspicious. No one can be that nice and apologetic all of the time.
Step 1: Patience
I think I might have overestimated my calming nature. Usually I can breathe out negativity and a smile will emerge. However people have found a way to knock all the wind out of me through the phone.