Not Another Comeback Post
As I lay in my bed watching true crime, I wonder how I got here. Safely in my shared home with more certainty than I’ve ever had about who I am, it feels like the right time to come back to what I’ve always loved. Writing saved me in times when my spoken voice failed and I felt the most misunderstood. Though I’ve uploaded my written words a number of times before, it all starts as a way I can get my brain to stop racing. Typed words turned into a diary post before entering college. They grew into blog posts when I couldn’t focus at my part time jobs. They evolved into videos when the world stood still. Creating is how I make sense of my experiences while existing in the cross sections of all of my identities. In these last few years, I forgot that was the true reason why I started making things on the internet.
Sometimes I got lost in the idea of the image I was supposed to have in the digital landscape. I thought I needed to be a brand, a product, a guru with a great business plan. I thought all of my content needed to be well thought out with an iron-clad schedule. I thought I needed to be a machine that just needed a niche. Lifestyle seemed too broad to build off of while trying to hide who I was. I know the cognitive dissonance between expressing who I am and curating who that person even is hasn’t helped me. But what can you expect from someone who didn’t think they’d actually achieve their goals and some of their dreams? I had no clue what I was doing when I bought my first domain. I still don’t have a concrete plan for this one. All I know in this moment is it’s time to be honest and get back out there. Nothing is holding me back except myself.
Fighting the urge to cringe, I'll reintroduce myself.
Hi 👋🏾 I go by Evie, The Love Gxddess. I create online experiences centering authenticity, love and shenanigans. I exist through many intersections (black, queer, non-monogamous, BDSM lifestyler, corporate baddie, etc.) which can make living complicated. I'm accepting I may never have all the answers. Sometimes, I can take long breaks to course-correct. I will never apologize for it again. My goal is to be the representation I wished I saw as a kid and to inspire people to live how they see as best, status quo be damned.
There's no schedule for content, no plans to execute and obsess over. All I offer is a space to be whoever you are. That is and always will be enough, at least to me.
