Today I've learned I'm not antisocial but still an introvert.

So I've always been a bit on the quiet side. And since I was a kid I was giving everyone a side eye. I was not a friendly baby and if I didn't know you, everyone would know. Coupled with familial reinforcement, I was sure that I naturally hated the general public. But as I started to grow into my true self I realized I don't hate people. I actually enjoy people and attract them.

The problem is that I seem to attract lots of people at one time. And that becomes overwhelming.

Take a couple weekends ago. I started out looking like the picture above. Then I transformed to this.

And ending up like this a couple hours later.

I was having a bunch of fun with my friends. I mean who doesn't enjoy bottomless mimosas during brunch hours? As time went on my energy waned and before I fell asleep in the bar, I decided to go home and recharge. I was pushing myself to be the life of the bars while bringing me closer to my brink. So I need to find a balance. I’m not sure when I will though.